If you know me and I mean truly know me, you’d know I’m not one to have many friends. I know a lot of people but I’ve never been much of a people person. You won’t see me with a big group of people and if you do it’s most likely me with my family. With that being said it doesn’t mean I don’t have friends, which annoys me when people look at me and say, “you don’t have any friends.” NO, I do have friends, I may not be able to count them on two hands and I may not see them as much as other people see there’s but it doesn’t mean they don’t exist.
But that’s not what this post is about. It’s about those that it seems like I’ve lost. The ones who stop speaking to you out of the blue and make you feel like you never existed. Once I click with someone I start to look at you as not only my friend but as family. I’m not afraid to be myself and open up about my biggest fears and most embarrassing moments. I’ll pour my heart out to you and you can do the same with no judgement. So to me it’s sad when the people you care so much about seem to disappear and you’re left thinking what did I do for this to happen.
I’ve had this happen to me not once but twice by two people I still love and care so much about. One minute you’re communicating everyday; laughing, smiling and crying about everything. Then the next minute the conversations slowly start to fade then eventually they completely go away. They stop responding to your calls and texts. Months start to go by and you wonder how they’re doing so you hit them but there’s still no reply. It’s not like they dropped off the face of Earth; we live in a world where everyone uses social networks and no one ever puts down their phones. Because of this you know they can see your calls and your post. The feeling hurts and you just pray that their ago and maybe they’ll come around. Along with that hurt also comes anger. In the back of your mind all you can think is WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO YOU? Still no matter how hurt and mad you get thinking about how the just left you can’t help but miss your friend.