For so long I went through life having a boyfriend, leaving very little time to get to know who I was as an individual. I got use to always having someone to call on whether I was happy, mad, sad or confused. No matter the time of day or night I knew if I called they would answer. I got comfortable knowing I’d always have someone by my side. For the first time in a long time I’m becoming comfortable being single. It’s like the more I try to find someone the more I come across disrespectful boys who aren’t ready to commit. I’m learning that I cannot force a relationship but I have to be patient and wait for what God has for me. I’m learning that I shouldn’t settle for less because I do not want to start  over and over again. Now I look at the guys in my past as lessons learned. They may have hurt me in one way or another but it showed me what I do not want in a future partner. I’m realizing the more I spend time figuring out who I am as a person and loving myself the happier I’m becoming. Guys are only becoming a distraction and one I do not need at this point in my life. I just want to make sure me and my son are great and someone deserving of our love and affection will come along  when they time is right for not just me but for my child as well.