For so long I went through life having a boyfriend, leaving very little time to get to know who I was as an individual. I got use to always having someone to call on whether I was happy, mad, sad or confused. No matter the time of day or night I knew if I called they would answer. I got comfortable knowing I’d always have someone by my side. For the first time in a long time I’m becoming comfortable being single. It’s like the more I try to find someone the more I come across disrespectful boys who aren’t ready to commit. I’m learning that I cannot force a relationship but I have to be patient and wait for what God has for me. I’m learning that I shouldn’t settle for less because I do not want to start over and over again. Now I look at the guys in my past as lessons learned. They may have hurt me in one way or another but it showed me what I do not want in a future partner. I’m realizing the more I spend time figuring out who I am as a person and loving myself the happier I’m becoming. Guys are only becoming a distraction and one I do not need at this point in my life. I just want to make sure me and my son are great and someone deserving of our love and affection will come along when they time is right for not just me but for my child as well.
Posted by:Sydney Reneé
Sydney Reneé, was and is woman searching for herself. For an outlet she turned to writing. The Diary of She became a public journal of her personal experiences, opinions and poetry. Through her journey she came to realize she wasn't only helping herself but other women who had been in her situation and may be currently dealing with the same struggles. Sydney Reneé continues to be an inspiration to all the women going through it, reminding them that it's never too late to go after your dreams and speak your truth.