“There is no weapon in the feminine armory to which men are so vulnerable as they are to a smile”. – Dorothy Dix
Last night I went somewhat on a rant after seeing the most unexpected message to come to my phone that whole entire day. I had no clue what I was looking at and I was confused as to why I was being scolded for not being into a guy the way he thought I was? The old me would have looked at the texts that were accusing me of being this manipulative, liar who agreed to go on a date (that I didn’t agree to) and pretended not to know who this guy was when I seen him and I would have immediately cussed out this guy but instead I kept my cool for the simple fact that the whole situation was petty and we have a mutual friend.
Let me give you a little background on how we got to this place:
Like a flower needs rain to grow
You need pain to grow
Today I was talking to a good friend of mine as I always do in our group chat and the topic of change came up. Currently I’m in-between jobs and she believes this whole change I’m enduring in life is coming from the universe and the universe is say, “follow your dreams and gain the freedom and happiness you’ve always desired.” Mind you, the universe, as well as those that know me, have been trying to tell me this for a long time but I always let my 9-5 and the fear of failing stop me.
Someone once told me that the fear I was feeling was the devil trying to hold me back and I can do nothing but agree with that because it was a fact. Now that I’m no longer working I’m so happy I have all this free time to put my fears behind me and jump into what I love most, creating… Podcast, books, YouTube videos and clothing. Continue reading →
I’m back with a new Vlog on my YouTube channel and today I felt like talking about confidence because let’s face, I don’t always have it and part of that comes from the world we call social media. We start to get so consumed into this idea that we are supposed to look a certain way and have certain things based on what people say, post and like.
I’m here to say, FUCK IT! once you find your confidence no one will be able to tell you shit or make you doubt yourself.
After a year or more of saying I’m going to start a vlog I’m finally entering the world of vlogging aka video logging (because I know some people have no clue what a vlog is.) I still need to brush up on getting the quality together but today my camera wasn’t allowing it. I also recorded this about 5 times & I may have liked the original better lol but I wanted to give you all a feel of who SHE (me) is.
FYI: for someone who isn’t a big fan of talking I actually got into this once I got into the flow of things. Also I’m open to feedback (ways to improve, topics, etc).
Check out my introduction below and subscribe to my channel for future updates (if you’d like) 🙂
I know by now most of us have seen the video posted by PrinceTattedd with the girl Ashley, who sat next to him for waaaayyyyy too long listening to his bullshit about how he doesn’t want a title. If you haven’t seen it you can watch it below before I get into my spill.
Now the video I watched on Facebook was 7 mins but this shit is a 16 min video and I’m over him and I’m also over her for sitting there for so long. BTW it’s also another video and this nigga has keys to her place. Her dad also told her this fool got her looking dumb so he’s mad at her as he should be. The moment he told her he could fuck around with other women but if she did the same he would cut, she needed to get up and walk the hell away BUT looking at her face she already had her mind made up on where her feelings would be staying and that is with him. She has become attached to this man and has already built a bond with the person his YouTube fans do not get to see.
We can call her stupid and we can also say he ain’t shit but trust and believe we’ve all been in this situation, some of us more than once. Now I respect him for finally saying something to her but he should have been straight forward from the start that way she wouldn’t have went into the situation thinking they were working towards a relationship. Now I’m not saying he needed to put a title on what they are because titles aren’t really necessary but an understanding is needed. What I mean by this is going into the situation it should have been made clear that:
Confession: I’m a cat in every way possible, meaning if I’ve ever told you, “yeah, we’ll hang out soon,” or “see you soon.” Yeeeaaaahhhhh… you’re not going to see me soon because I’m horrible at putting any time aside, even if I like you or you’re the closest person I have in my life. I don’t know what it is but I just can’t bring myself to stick to the “plan.”
It’s like trying to give a cat a bath. It’s going to go one of two ways:
I’ll give in and go out my way to make the time for you even though I don’t really have to but at this point you’ve got me out my comfort zone, been patiently waiting and I miss you more than I miss being lazy so I’m all for it 🙂
You’re going to ask to see me over and over again until I finally flip the fuck out and find every reason to get the fuck out of this unwanted invitation to chill. ESCAPE PLAN IN FULL EFFECT!