Destruction Ahead – The Diary of She Vol. II

How can you look me in the eyes and say I’ve never been there for you? Looking back at you, I can see our whole journey playing on a loop.

Who was there giving you a shoulder to cry on when the world made you feel like you had to walk around in permanent armor?

The world made you feel like you had to remain hard in order to receive respect, but I assured you your emotions only added to the strength you possessed, and if you felt the need to hide from the world, you didn’t have to hide yourself from me.

You let your emotions flow like a river, and I was there to float freely with you.

My dear, please, don’t act like I wasn’t there helping you, building you up when you were at your lowest with no one around to lift your spirits to heights higher than the highest.

Treating you like the light that guided my way through the darkness you were living in when I was really your sun in the night sky keeping a glow on your face.

Helping you evolve into the man she sees standing before her, a man who found his way when he got lost in the wind and led into a direction that only read destruction ahead.

I traveled long and far to bring you back from the depths of hell only for you to up and leave me to fight the demons of your world alone.

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“Let’s Be Friends…Again!” A Novel By Sydney Renee

Out with the old, in with the new…maybe, we should just be friends too. In Let’s Be Friends…Again, relationships are tested, trust is broken, and unlikely bonds are formed.

After a breakup with whom she thought was the love of her life, Rebecca sees that the grass is truly greener on the other side. She found unconditional love with Brandon, has a new office at work, and her bag is constantly growing. But, when Rebecca finds out through the grapevine that Nasir has a baby on the way, she begins to distance herself from Brandon and question herself as a woman.

Meanwhile, ex-boyfriend Nasir Wright learns that money doesn’t always bring you happiness. Finding it hard to let go of Rebecca, home-life is slowly crumbling, and his relationship is on a never-ending rollercoaster of emotions. Ashley begins to wonder if she made a mistake by inserting herself back into his life, as there’s a new problem with them almost every other day.

Will Rebecca and friends be able to deal with the issues from the past creeping back into their lives, or will it send them all in opposite directions?

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To find out to how Rebecca and Friends got to where they were click the link to read the first part of “Let’s Be Friends.”

“Rebecca is a beautiful black woman thriving in the world of publishing and YouTube. She thinks she’s found the man of her dreams, Nasir, a successful owner of a real estate firm, until the unthinkable happens. Now, Rebecca is left wondering how her world was turned upside down in less than 24-hours. Not only did she lose the man of her dreams, but she may have lost him to the first woman he ever loved.

Find out what happens when one betrayal decides to come to light; Friendships will be tested, true colors will be revealed, and the least likely bonds will be made all due to one text.”

Ideas For Those Lonely Journals

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Every day I look at my bookshelf and the stack of empty journals just waiting to be used, along with the two sitting on my nightstand begging to be opened. I thought about throwing them out and I’ve told people to stop buying them for me because I don’t use them. Yet, I refuse to give them away because of their beauty.

Oh and I can’t forget about the half empty journals with memories of my summer’s before college and the times I felt so hurt by the father of my child that I couldn’t do anything but write. Like honestly, do I rip out the pages and burn the memories or do I continue to write in them with more consistency?

I’ve been thinking of all the ways I can bring my journals back to life; get them out of their state of loneliness and I believe I’ve found some answers. Check out these ideas that will help put those empty or half empty journals to use:

  • Keep it next to your bed and write down every dream you can remember having as soon as you wake up
  •  Write a sentence a day and see where it takes you. It’s possible you’ll end up with a story at the end
  •  Make it a budgeting journal. Keep note of all your expenses each month.
  • Into cooking or want to keep a track of new/old recipes? Write it down.
  •  Prayer Journal
  •  Everyday make a list of what you are grateful for
  • Sketchbook
  • Password Journal because if you’re a normal human I know those passwords start to get confusing.
  • Use it for your To Do List
  • If you tend to travel a lot write about your trips
  • A fitness journal – track your progress (weight, recipes, exercises, etc)
  • Start a therapy journal
  • Write down positive affirmations or quotes daily

& there’s so much more you can use those empty journals for. What do you use your journals for?

Level Up – Read a Book!

It’s sad to say this but since the passing of Nipsey Hussle, I’ve been inspired with wanting to level up and educate myself more on entrepreneurship, financial stability, my history and who I am as a black woman in America. A lot of that involves feeding my brain with the information out there that is provided to us. There are well over 100 million books in the world just waiting for one of us to pick it up, providing us with the information that no teacher ever has. It’s really up to us to take that power, upgrade ourselves and anyone else willing to learn.

Most of the books I’ve read throughout life have been fictional and more on the ghetto or supernatural side but I’ve decided to expand my views a bit more when it comes to reading. Yesterday I asked a few people some of their suggestions and I’ve definitely wrote them down since I can’t order a million books at one. I started with ordering the following:

  • Well-Read Black Girl by Glory Edim
    • Remember that moment when you first encountered a character who seemed to be written just for you? That feeling of belonging remains with readers the rest of their lives—but not everyone regularly sees themselves in the pages of a book. In this timely anthology, Glory Edim brings together original essays by some of our best black women writers to shine a light on how important it is that we all—regardless of gender, race, religion, or ability—have the opportunity to find ourselves in literature
  • The Source of Self-Regard by Toni Morrison
    • The Source of Self-Regard is brimming with all the elegance of mind and style, the literary prowess and moral compass that are Toni Morrison’s inimitable hallmark. It is divided into three parts: the first is introduced by a powerful prayer for the dead of 9/11; the second by a searching meditation on Martin Luther King Jr., and the last by a heart-wrenching eulogy for James Baldwin. In the writings and speeches included here, Morrison takes on contested social issues: the foreigner, female empowerment, the press, money, “black matter(s),” and human rights. She looks at enduring matters of culture: the role of the artist in society, the literary imagination, the Afro-American presence in American literature, and in her Nobel lecture, the power of language itself.
  • A Bound Woman Is a Dangerous Thing by DaMaris B. Hill
    • From Harriet Tubman to Assata Shakur, Ida B. Wells to Sandra Bland and Black Lives Matter, black women freedom fighters have braved violence, scorn, despair, and isolation in order to lodge their protests. In A Bound Woman Is a Dangerous Thing, DaMaris Hill honors their experiences with at times harrowing, at times hopeful responses to her heroes, illustrated with black-and-white photographs throughout.
  • Year of Yes by Shondra Rhimes
    • This poignant, intimate, and hilarious memoir explores Shonda’s life before her Year of Yes—from her nerdy, book-loving childhood creating imaginary friends to her devotion to creating television characters who reflected the world she saw around her (like Cristina Yang, whose ultimate goal wasn’t marriage, and Cyrus Beene, who is a Republican and gay). And it chronicles her life after her Year of Yes had begun—when Shonda forced herself out of the house and onto the stage, appearing on Jimmy Kimmel Live, and giving the Dartmouth Commencement speech; when she learned to say yes to her health, yes to play and she stepped out of the shadows and into the sun; when she learned to explore, empower, applaud, and love her truest self. Yes.

These books are currently on the way thanks to Amazon Prime but what I’m extremely happy about is the post I was tagged in this more, Nipsey’s Book List. It came at just the right time and I can’t wait to add those books to my collection. This man was so damn intelligent, giving, spiritual and had a heart of pure gold. I can’t wait to get into his head a little bit more by reading a few of the books he enjoyed and shared with his family and friends. I will list a few below but you can find the whole list on this account!

NIPSEY’S Book List

  1. Between the World and Me – Ta-Nehisi Coates
  2. Blood in My Eye – George Jackson
  3. Conscious Capitalism – John Mackey & Rajendra Sisodia
  4. Contagious – Jonah Berger
  5. Creative Collection – Ken Kocienda
  6. Culture Vultures – Kenyatta Griggs & Damon Dash
  7. Fools by Randomness – Nassim Nicholas Taleb
  8. Heal Thy Self – Queen Afua
  9. How to Eat to Live – Elijah Muhammad
  10. I Didn’t Do It For You – Michela Wrong

List some books you think everyone can benefit from reading.