Like a flower needs rain to grow
You need pain to grow
Today I was talking to a good friend of mine as I always do in our group chat and the topic of change came up. Currently I’m in-between jobs and she believes this whole change I’m enduring in life is coming from the universe and the universe is say, “follow your dreams and gain the freedom and happiness you’ve always desired.” Mind you, the universe, as well as those that know me, have been trying to tell me this for a long time but I always let my 9-5 and the fear of failing stop me.
Someone once told me that the fear I was feeling was the devil trying to hold me back and I can do nothing but agree with that because it was a fact. Now that I’m no longer working I’m so happy I have all this free time to put my fears behind me and jump into what I love most, creating… Podcast, books, YouTube videos and clothing. Continue reading
There was a time in life I’d wake up every morning thinking I knew who I was until the day came that I realized I didn’t know myself at all. I wasn’t sure where my life was heading and if I’d ever get to that destination. I spent more time worrying about what I didn’t have that I stopped focusing on the journey ahead.
A chunk of my life has been spent letting people dictate who I’d be; mostly the men I caught myself falling for. I was weak, I didn’t have a voice and I damn sure wasn’t using my mind. I look back and I see that I almost let my life go down a path of destruction. I’ve done things that I’ll never be able to take back. For years I was upset with myself and tried to bury the past. How could I almost let my life come to that? I was disappointed in myself but that was a chapter of my life that made a piece of me. I thought I regretted the situation until I realized I learned and grew from it. I was not that person but I still had some searching to do.
Last night before bed I decided to listen to Stage 30‘s Podcast, “We Ain’t Friends.” The show is hosted by Su & Tray. You can follow their twitter handle @Stage30_ and catch a new episode every week.
They discussed learning when to let go of friendships and recognizing when people really aren’t your friends. Although their Podcast is geared towards those who just hit 30 and what life brings, this particular subject caught my attention. Plus I’ll be hitting 30 before I know it.
Growing up we build bonds with individuals based on the fact that we are in each other’s presence everyday whether that’s at school,gatherings or work. You see these particular people so much that eventually you begin to call each other friends.