It’s been 8 months since I’ve seen my best-friend and about 4 years since we’ve had a real honest conversation, well besides the conversation we had 8 months ago, which I feel like he was forced to have. Not because I forced him but because how awkward is it to be in the same room with somebody that you were once so close to and not say anything at all? Extremely! I admit, I was going to be the one that continued to avoid him but he seen me and stopped me. I thought that moment was going to be the rekindling of the friendship we once had but just when I got my hopes up I was let down once again.Continue reading “I Miss My Best-friend (Sometimes).”
Meet Ashley… She’s sweet and filled with strength but more broken than anyone can imagine. Determined to work through the cards life dealt her, she decided to let go of her one true love and focus on building herself back up and taking care of her siblings, after a tragedy almost tore them completely apart. Now that life is back in order Ashley is ready to get her first love back no matter the cost, but is he the same man she once knew?
“Let’s Be Friends” drops this Friday 11/30/18
If you know me and I mean truly know me, you’d know I’m not one to have many friends. I may know/know of a lot of people but I’ve never truly been able to call those people MY friends. To be honest you’ll never see me with a big group of people and if you do it’s very likely it’s just my family.
People may not know this but it’s always bothered me a little that I don’t have a group of girls I can call on when I’m down or want to laugh about absolutely nothing. It bothers me even more when my family laughs and brings up the fact that I don’t have friends. When someone comes around or I do hangout with someone it’s a damn celebration of life to them. BUTWAIT!!!! I’ll take that back. I do have a few girls I can look to when I need to vent, ask for advice or just be silly for no reason but of course my closest friends always live in different states or are just busy doing and figuring out life like I am. I may not see or talk to them much but I know they are people I can call on if needed.
I’ve built bonds with people, I can give myself that, but somehow those bonds always seem to break. It may take a few months maybe even a few years but eventually the friendship slips away before I can realize what went wrong. Once I click with someone I begin to look at that person as not just a friend but as my family. I’m not afraid to show you who the real Sydney is. I will open up about my biggest fears and most embarrassing moments. You will see my goofy side as well as my serious one. I’ll pour my heart out to you and you can do the same with no judgement. So to me it’s sad when those same people disappear and I’m left thinking, “what’s wrong with me?” I’ve had this happen to me plenty of times by people I still love and care for. One minute you’re communicating everyday, laughing, smiling and crying. Then the next minute the conversations slowly starts to fade. They stop responding to your calls and texts. Months start to go by and you wonder how they’re doing so you hit them and still no reply. It’s not like they dropped off the face of Earth. We live in a world where everyone uses social media and no one seems to ever put down their phones so you know they see you reaching out. You pray that they’re ok and maybe they’ll come around. Along with the hurt you feel also comes anger. In the back of your mind all you can think is “WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO YOU?”
In life we all come across that one human being that we know inside and out. We pretty much go to this person for everything. They’re one of the most important people in our lives and we couldn’t imagine having to live without them. We call this person our best friend but in most cases they end up being more like family.
Being able to open up to a person; sharing your weaknesses and deepest secrets, can be scary but it’s beautiful when you can peel off every layer of you, revealing who you truly are without being judged. They aren’t only there during the hard times but they get to witness some of the happiest moments in your life. Now this person may be female or male but a lot of times we have both, which is great because you get two different opinions about certain subjects because lets just admit it, men and women do not think the same. But what happens when you begin to fall for your friend of the opposite sex? It could end up being the person you spend the rest of your life with but you have to remember you may also ruin a friendship that took years to build. Trust me I’ve been in the situation of taking that extra step with a best friend and let’s say we’ve basically become acquaintances who label each other ‘best friend.’
Last night before bed I decided to listen to Stage 30‘s Podcast, “We Ain’t Friends.” The show is hosted by Su & Tray. You can follow their twitter handle @Stage30_ and catch a new episode every week.
They discussed learning when to let go of friendships and recognizing when people really aren’t your friends. Although their Podcast is geared towards those who just hit 30 and what life brings, this particular subject caught my attention. Plus I’ll be hitting 30 before I know it.
Growing up we build bonds with individuals based on the fact that we are in each other’s presence everyday whether that’s at school,gatherings or work. You see these particular people so much that eventually you begin to call each other friends.