I want to look like those girls on the cover of magazines. The ones all the boys claim to not stand but drool over ever chance they get. I want to be able to post a picture up on IG and get 1000 likes in one second. Sometimes I wish someone would look at me and say, “I’m going to make that girl over,” like Cher and Dionne did Tai in clueless. For one day I would love to be the “it” girl, but I know myself and I know that until I get my weight under control, no makeover will make me 100% happy with the way I look. At times I wish I had the money along with the courage to just go under and suck the fat right on out of me and fill in those hip dips I have. BUT I don’t and I really don’t want to go that route.